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"Jigsaw"
Emelisa Mudle
Acrylic on canvas
80 x 100 cm
Feelings: We all have them.By Emelisa Mudle
Feelings are a beautiful part of who we are yet we spend so much time
doing what we can to avoid them. As a child I was brought up to be quiet
keep your mouth shut, crying is for babies, anger is just not happening
and don’t scream as children should be seen and not heard. Now did
that have any affect on me? Yes of course it did.
And for a very long time I lived my life in a non-feeling box.
Have you ever avoided tears, made excuses for crying in movies or maybe
when you have felt anger you just say within you “nice girls don’t
get angry and anger is wrong?” Over and over again I meet so many
people that live their lives in the intellect. Constantly searching outside
themselves for their dreams and avoiding where their dreams actually come
from “within.”
Within you might say?
Do you think that what is happening for you has nothing to do
with you? We are our thoughts — we are energy — we attract all that is
in our lives.
How many relationships have you gone through creating the same patterns?
Maybe abuse? Maybe the old hot and cold dance of intimacy. I want you
but as soon as you love me I will push you away.
So if this keeps happening in your life, what is the message you are
being told?
Create, creation to create to manifest, so what it is you are manifesting
and how can you change this?
There is a whole world within you awaiting your exploration — all you
have to do is take that first step and break through the logical mind and
boxes
we have placed within us. Some call this sabotage but for me I feel it
is just conscious patterning. How can we know a different way if you don’t
have the mirrors to see it. If a person has been brought up with no love
and treated cruelly how can this person know love if it has never been
shown to them. How then can we change these patterns? Well one key is to
start to become aware, aware that there is more to us than meets the eye.
Imagine your conscious and subconscious are like icebergs, when you look
at an iceberg there is so little above the water and so much underneath.
The conscious is showing us very little but the subconscious is where we
store old tapes, old patterns, old hurts; and until we open that door and
go within we will remain in the same habitual patterns.
Logic is great as long as it is balanced with the feelings and
intuitiveness. So how many of us go through life thinking our way through
everything?
How many of you remain so busy that you do not allow a quiet moment to
feel? To listen and hear what is really happening within you.
Hurt is way of saying, feel me and heal me. Embrace me and love
me. Tears are beautiful and should be allowed to be released. After a good
cry
we tend to feel lighter and freer if we actually allow the tears, otherwise
for some crying can make us feel tight and horrible and we never want
to
go there. We don’t feel safe and we judge it to be wrong because
it doesn’t feel good. If we were not meant to feel we wouldn’t
have feelings. If we were not meant to cry we wouldn’t have tear
ducts. Courage and self responsibility isn’t just about how great
you are in a job and how many friend you have it is about being vulnerable
enough to be real and say “I feel this” not “you
make me feel this.” I would much rather cry and feel now than
let it manifest again in my body. Yes that is right — where do you
think the feelings go if
you don’t feel them? Why do you think there is so much sickness,
cancer, stress, and headaches. It isn’t just the food, it is
our feelings and thoughts manifesting in our bodies trying to tell
us to
slow down, stop,
and feel.
Next time you are on a mission mode and running — stop, breath
and ask yourself “how
do I feel?” Balance is the key, lets hope you use this key
to open up your doorway to feelings and love. •
© 2005 Emelisa Mudle
About the Author | More by Emelisa Mudle
Emelisa Mudle is an Australian Artist and Creative Workshop Facilitator. She has worked internationally running workshops in health retreats as well as various other venues. For 13 years she has been studying in her own inner college as well as outer colleges exploring and changing her life so that she can live her dreams and share her passions with the world. Visit her website: Emelisa Mudle's Heart Art.
07/24/05
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