Collaging with Cancer : Stay Away
Collaging with Cancer #7
By Anne Marie Bennett
I originally made this SoulCollage® card in the spring of 2011, just a few months before my diagnosis of secondary angiosarcoma of my left breast (NOT breast cancer). I wasn’t sure what the woman on the card was saying, but the energy of the card felt strong and protective to me.
That July, when I found out I was going to have a mastectomy, I happened to draw this card in one of the short readings I do with my SoulCollage® deck every other day. At that time, she was saying to me:
Then, several months later, I drew this card again in one of my random short readings. And she had something more to tell me. For the first time, I noticed that the background actually LOOKED like a round breast and a flat scar where a breast would be. The background, even though it was obviously taken from images of the Universe, was actually a representation of my own chest.
I Am the One Who is standing in front of the Universe. I Am the One Who is holding up my hand so no one will come near/intrude.
I Am the One Who is standing in front of my own body, my own chest. The left breast is now gone, a bright, illuminated scar in its place. My right breast, created anew by my beloved plastic surgeon, is now shiny and new, in perfect proportion to the rest of me.
I Am the One Who is saying ENOUGH! NO MORE SURGERY! Not now, anyway. Not at this time. I am not ready for my body to be scarred yet again. Not now. Maybe another year, but NOT NOW.
I Am the One Who is protecting you from any more physical changes of the surgical kind. Before/after your mastectomy, I was giving you wisdom and advice about staying away from anything that was not healing for you, to protect your boundaries and I am still saying that to you. And now, my meaning, my message, has increased, widened, deepened.
This is a powerful example of how the practice of SoulCollage® can guide us through absolutely anything. At the time I drew this card for the second time, I had been contemplating having reconstruction surgery on my left side, but this card tenderly touched on exactly what I needed right then, which was no more surgery! •
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About Anne Marie Bennett
Anne Marie Bennett is a published author, self-taught artist, and SoulCollage® Facilitator/Trainer with a website dedicated to helping women with any kind of cancer stay connected to Self, Others, and Spirit. More